I dont know,
Dont ask me.
But,
I felt pretty awful today.
):
I know i know everything is about to end.
LIKE IN THREE DAYS. wow with the enlarged eyes
But, why arent i a tad happy today?
I was upset with myself actually for getting overly anxious for today's paper.
and to sum up,
i didnt do exactly well for all my papers this week. (chem pp2, econs pp1 and 2).
thats what got me pretty upset,
as in the nearer you draw to an end,
the more you think about how you're gonna fare.
no?
ok then maybe im weird.
for me, the fear of attaining bad/fair grades is overwhelming and it totally robbed me of the joy i should feel today.
):
i keep telling people that nothing's the end and everything happens for a reason,
but i reeally cant practise what i preech.
the more i think, the more i feel like its really over, im a gonner, im the biggest loser.
i should really stop being negative right?
LIKE WHY AM I SO UPSET FOR WHAT NOT LIKE I GOT BACK MY RESULTS ALREADY?!
its just this passing feeling.
it'll be gone soon, i hope.
:/
(aiya, ill only be upset for like a day (or two) so dont worry)
but in a few days time,
i might just be the happiest little A level kid in the world and many would be jealous of me hehehe
especially you physics/bio/lit kidz are studying, i'll be away on my little getaway.
:D whoo whoooo
i hope this trip bodes well and nothing bad will happen choy, God will protect us kidz. :>
OK GUESS WHAAT IM PLAYING FACEBOOK GAMES NOW LAH.
damn on right?
but im dominating the few last positions in all the games i feel like a major loser there dont laugh
): hahahahaha ( see the irony? im sad yet i think its funny kthxbai)
Im soooo bored.
I just swiped/packed A WHOLE CHUNK OF EXAMPAPER/NOTES/TUTORIALS into this bag
and it BROKE.
i think i can lay them out nicely and might create an island with the amount of paper i have.
:)
OH AND I SAW THE INVIGILATOR WHO LOOKS LIKE ME TODAY.
okay that actually made me happy.
kinda guessed it was her.
OOH OH she walked past my table!!!!!
my heart was thumping dont ask me why. HAHAHAHA
watched my Antm Cycle 13 finale already.
you cant believe what i actually did okay?
i cried ( or teared if crying seems a tad exaggerated)
no not because nicole won, i always wanted nicole to win,
its the part when laura talked about her grandma and when laura didnt win.
i wanted both nicole and laura to win but its impossible like what Tyra said " its America's Next Top Model not Models,"
but laura was really sucha nice girl. :( her runway was just SO AWESOME!!!!!!
Okay i need to rule some facebook game now!
goooodbye!
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
WHOOOO NICOLE WON :>
But im only gonna watch antm finale tmr after econs paper!
See self control? :)
YAY I CANT CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT :D
Ok baiiiii
V unproductive day today
2 chem mcq papers
And 1 csq econs essay
Gonna 9-12 again!
To the heroes who are still in the battlefield
There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
That a hero lies in you
--
We're actually stronger than we think.
So Keep going guys
it's nearing the end
:>
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
That a hero lies in you
--
We're actually stronger than we think.
So Keep going guys
it's nearing the end
:>
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Mad. Crazy. Insane
Finally, im left with 2 more papers!!! :D
Chem Paper 2 was a disaster.
as in i dont know whats with me, i put in the wrong values, and given that i had 30mins to finish my last question, i thought i could do carefully and slowly but really, i spent 20mins calculating the stupid PV=nRT shit and it was chicken feeed because R value was given in data booklet as 8.314 but i sub in 4.18 inside instead and that was the heat capacity value wtshinggggzzzz.
i was mad emotional that day.
10marks just gone like that.
just dashed my hopes of getting an A really ): what the blehhhhhh
But mr peh was really nice, he was v encouraging and had a talk with me which calmed me down.
thankkkk q :) im v grateful.
took cab to pavilion rise but got lost (yes in a cab)..
waited for mary in the hot sun to pass her my passport. and i was feeling giddy and i thought about grandma's heat stroke i was scared. i ran like a chicken to the nearest bus stop to seek shelter and saw a bus home.. checked my tweets..AND missed my bus. thankzzzz.
reached home and my temperature was rising.
i. was. running. a. fever.
nice, a night before econs paper2. popped in panadols and chionged form 9pm-12am.
Last one standing is such an awesome show @treecialaw and i were going nuttts when the nai nai was tortured and going to die.
):
anywayzzz,
today was crazy. the fever did not subside and today was wasiba very hot wednesday (acc to muttons)
went to school feeling really sick and just wanna chiong this paper.
10mins before the paper i was going crazy, praying damn hard i wont faint halfway.
ok attempted the questions, and really, i wanted to give up in the midst of the second question.
prayed damn hard and told myself to pushhhhh it.
finally, 415pm and i did it.
i survived it.
:) thank you God.
i really have no comments about the paper, after attempting all the papers i find cambridge are being weird this year setting all these questions and not including major topics that people would actually study.
k fine, shant talk about it.
im free today.
gonna reest early so that fever can go awayyyyy :D
TWO MORE PAPERS.
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? :D
okkkk here are some spastic picturessss from tutionnnn. :>
( LOOK AT MR KUAN'S FACE HAHAHAHHA i just look mad retarded here hahahaha)
(blowing competition i looked damn grozzzzz HAHAHA)
this was the ultimate grossss-est thing ever. all our saliva all over dyan. we just crush only.
(Spot the difference)
Chem Paper 2 was a disaster.
as in i dont know whats with me, i put in the wrong values, and given that i had 30mins to finish my last question, i thought i could do carefully and slowly but really, i spent 20mins calculating the stupid PV=nRT shit and it was chicken feeed because R value was given in data booklet as 8.314 but i sub in 4.18 inside instead and that was the heat capacity value wtshinggggzzzz.
i was mad emotional that day.
10marks just gone like that.
just dashed my hopes of getting an A really ): what the blehhhhhh
But mr peh was really nice, he was v encouraging and had a talk with me which calmed me down.
thankkkk q :) im v grateful.
took cab to pavilion rise but got lost (yes in a cab)..
waited for mary in the hot sun to pass her my passport. and i was feeling giddy and i thought about grandma's heat stroke i was scared. i ran like a chicken to the nearest bus stop to seek shelter and saw a bus home.. checked my tweets..AND missed my bus. thankzzzz.
reached home and my temperature was rising.
i. was. running. a. fever.
nice, a night before econs paper2. popped in panadols and chionged form 9pm-12am.
Last one standing is such an awesome show @treecialaw and i were going nuttts when the nai nai was tortured and going to die.
):
anywayzzz,
today was crazy. the fever did not subside and today was wasiba very hot wednesday (acc to muttons)
went to school feeling really sick and just wanna chiong this paper.
10mins before the paper i was going crazy, praying damn hard i wont faint halfway.
ok attempted the questions, and really, i wanted to give up in the midst of the second question.
prayed damn hard and told myself to pushhhhh it.
finally, 415pm and i did it.
i survived it.
:) thank you God.
i really have no comments about the paper, after attempting all the papers i find cambridge are being weird this year setting all these questions and not including major topics that people would actually study.
k fine, shant talk about it.
im free today.
gonna reest early so that fever can go awayyyyy :D
TWO MORE PAPERS.
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? :D
okkkk here are some spastic picturessss from tutionnnn. :>
the photos bel tagged are really hilarious.
although we looked like really nutsandbolts but seriously, i was feeling v stresseddddd. and these photos were taken like a week before A levels. hahahah.
after persuading dyan to buy, what i call, the china ballloons, we had great mad crazy fun in tuition centre.
( LOOK AT MR KUAN'S FACE HAHAHAHHA i just look mad retarded here hahahaha)
(blowing competition i looked damn grozzzzz HAHAHA)
this was the ultimate grossss-est thing ever. all our saliva all over dyan. we just crush only. 
(Spot the difference)OKAY IM OFF>
ALL THE BEST PHYSICS KIDZ!
NEWTON LOVES YOU.
Ciaoooo
Saturday, November 14, 2009
and her dressss is sooooo gorgeous!
GO NICOLE!
who's with me? :>
ok bye need to start my whole routine again.
i cantwait to get out and go shoppppping chopping and get fabbbbb clothes and bags and shoes and accessories, imma gonna scream like a girl.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
With a Lub Dub Sound
if i set my goals too high, putting my hopes too high,
and in the end, if i dont get what i presumed,
will i be devastated?
yes you will, jud.
ive thought long and hard.
im not gonna bother about whatever the outcome may be.
yes im scared and i dont wanna face the truth.
the careless mistakes i made mounted to idontknowhowmuchbutitsalot after recollecting my thoughts today about the entire week during the lone train ride just now (plus ANTM omggg okay but that aside)
like i didnt press square, like i didnt cc, like i didnt care about my C constant, like i wrote the ans that i was unsure on the question paper and left my ans blank turns out my guess was right, like i didnt read the questions carefully, like.. ok you get the drift.
im so irritated because it gets on my nerves when i know i actually made mistakes like these that can actually deters me from getting a higher grade.
im a pessimist and i cant deny the fact.
i need to learn the nicole-from-antm-cycle-13's spirit.
she's the ultimate role model and should win antm although i really love laura toooo!
okay im digressing...
today was a total bummer.
but i had fun fun fun.
i was supposed to study for econz but i didnt.
had lunch with yumei and her two friends Xin-something ( sorry i really cant rmb chinese names well) and Shalene.
i feel so, different from them. somehow..i dont think i can survive one day (okay maybe two) in rijc.
you just compare the rafflesians' standards and yours,
like seriously PALE in comparision
the way they act, speak, like smart only.
yes im jealousssss ahhaha why cant i be smart as well ):
okay nvmz.
they're really nice people tooo and i like them. great that yumei made good friends there (:
yknow me, i can talk to strangers only if they are nice,
and i'll be ultimate hostile to you (even if you are my friend) if i dont fancy you
i see no point beating about the bush(es).
i went home to catch a napppp first
woke up and procrastinated for awhile.
facebooking really waste like 10 times of the time you stare blankly in the air.
read abit of econs and went out for dinnnnner.
antm abit in the train until bishan where they cut off my access to internet ):
met luv and someone damn on watch paranormal activity and play lan like a levels over hor.
okay i cant say much about myself either, i did close to nothing today as well. hahaha
and i swear this is the first time i see SO MANY JC2s in town! so happyyyyyy
it used to be " i think we're the only J2s in town, guess which is a J2?"
" the lady in blue" (turns out to be a 40plus woman -.-)
but today town was flooding with soooo many J2s whoooo :D
had Shokudo after much deliberation, and frolick thereafter.
g said japan is goooood and seriously makes me itch to forgo aus and just go japan w somebody but no, i promise mello and jiaoy.
BUT THE SEAFOOD THERE SOUNDS DAMN SHIOK KNOW?!
k nmzz.
havent been blogging randomly about itsy bitsy stuff.
so heres one that would satisfy you stalkers' tastes ( if there even are people STILL reading this)
thank you love you. :)
hahahahaha baiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
till next weekend! (or not)
8>
and in the end, if i dont get what i presumed,
will i be devastated?
yes you will, jud.
ive thought long and hard.
im not gonna bother about whatever the outcome may be.
yes im scared and i dont wanna face the truth.
the careless mistakes i made mounted to idontknowhowmuchbutitsalot after recollecting my thoughts today about the entire week during the lone train ride just now (plus ANTM omggg okay but that aside)
like i didnt press square, like i didnt cc, like i didnt care about my C constant, like i wrote the ans that i was unsure on the question paper and left my ans blank turns out my guess was right, like i didnt read the questions carefully, like.. ok you get the drift.
im so irritated because it gets on my nerves when i know i actually made mistakes like these that can actually deters me from getting a higher grade.
im a pessimist and i cant deny the fact.
i need to learn the nicole-from-antm-cycle-13's spirit.
she's the ultimate role model and should win antm although i really love laura toooo!
okay im digressing...
today was a total bummer.
but i had fun fun fun.
i was supposed to study for econz but i didnt.
had lunch with yumei and her two friends Xin-something ( sorry i really cant rmb chinese names well) and Shalene.
i feel so, different from them. somehow..i dont think i can survive one day (okay maybe two) in rijc.
you just compare the rafflesians' standards and yours,
like seriously PALE in comparision
the way they act, speak, like smart only.
yes im jealousssss ahhaha why cant i be smart as well ):
okay nvmz.
they're really nice people tooo and i like them. great that yumei made good friends there (:
yknow me, i can talk to strangers only if they are nice,
and i'll be ultimate hostile to you (even if you are my friend) if i dont fancy you
i see no point beating about the bush(es).
i went home to catch a napppp first
woke up and procrastinated for awhile.
facebooking really waste like 10 times of the time you stare blankly in the air.
read abit of econs and went out for dinnnnner.
antm abit in the train until bishan where they cut off my access to internet ):
met luv and someone damn on watch paranormal activity and play lan like a levels over hor.
okay i cant say much about myself either, i did close to nothing today as well. hahaha
and i swear this is the first time i see SO MANY JC2s in town! so happyyyyyy
it used to be " i think we're the only J2s in town, guess which is a J2?"
" the lady in blue" (turns out to be a 40plus woman -.-)
but today town was flooding with soooo many J2s whoooo :D
had Shokudo after much deliberation, and frolick thereafter.
g said japan is goooood and seriously makes me itch to forgo aus and just go japan w somebody but no, i promise mello and jiaoy.
BUT THE SEAFOOD THERE SOUNDS DAMN SHIOK KNOW?!
k nmzz.
havent been blogging randomly about itsy bitsy stuff.
so heres one that would satisfy you stalkers' tastes ( if there even are people STILL reading this)
thank you love you. :)
hahahahaha baiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
till next weekend! (or not)
8>
Friday, November 13, 2009
Imma Survivor
Can you believe it?
I SURVIVED THIS WHOLE HORRIBLE WEEK!
im so proud of myselffffffff im going to give myself a longer break than usual today. (hence the going out for dinner with g and blogging now wheeeettttttzxs)
although i know i really need to study for econs
yknow it feels so surreal, sometimes you tend to think its all a dream.
I had papers from Monday to Friday, back to back!
i can summarize my routine for the week in less than 10 words!
Wake up. Exam. Home. Nap. Study. Sleep (or try to)
ok although there are several 'procrastination times' where you just basically do nonsense, really.
i can stare in space for 10 mins thinking about, absolutely nothing.
you do that too right? no?
:/
God's been really goooooooood :>
ive never been a prayful person but this week, i became one.
i prayed incessantly for everything.
for making my legs walk faster to catch the bus.
for making 966 to come ON TIME.
for helping me to wake up at 550am every morning.
and for giving me the wisdom and strength to do all my papers.
not that i did absolutely wellllll but, you see, ive never been an A student (unlike my sisters-3 of them) or being labelled as The Smart One, so being able to do most of the papers was a feat!
my first taste of A levels was H1 Geog paper.
i actually cried after the paper.
I am sucha weeper, i swear.
I was so devastated i lost myself when i heard whatever i wrote for my Outsourcing question was wrong (not entirely BUT still wrong). i cried because i thought about the bad grade i might get and that would really threaten my position in Uni so sobx sobz sobs.
But i learnt alot from there, i learnt that i shouldnt cry over something that is done.
" dont cry over spilled milk"
yeah how apt right? not like youre gonna lick up those milk off the ground right? k nvmz.
but sigh, i decided to go all out for the rest of the papers and just forget about the mistakes.
and i did.
(: im prouuuuda myself.
Okay, got to go do some econs nowwwww!
Time Table for next week.
Tue- Chem Paper 2
Wed- Econs Paper 2
Fri- Econs paper 1
Next Mon- Chem Paper 1.
AND IM OVER WITH IT.
:D WHOOOOOOOOOOOOO
okay bye. hehehehehehe
OH YES MY FRIENDS SAID THIS INVIGILATOR LOOKS LIKE ME HAHAHAHAHHA
I SURVIVED THIS WHOLE HORRIBLE WEEK!
im so proud of myselffffffff im going to give myself a longer break than usual today. (hence the going out for dinner with g and blogging now wheeeettttttzxs)
although i know i really need to study for econs
yknow it feels so surreal, sometimes you tend to think its all a dream.
I had papers from Monday to Friday, back to back!
i can summarize my routine for the week in less than 10 words!
Wake up. Exam. Home. Nap. Study. Sleep (or try to)
ok although there are several 'procrastination times' where you just basically do nonsense, really.
i can stare in space for 10 mins thinking about, absolutely nothing.
you do that too right? no?
:/
God's been really goooooooood :>
ive never been a prayful person but this week, i became one.
i prayed incessantly for everything.
for making my legs walk faster to catch the bus.
for making 966 to come ON TIME.
for helping me to wake up at 550am every morning.
and for giving me the wisdom and strength to do all my papers.
not that i did absolutely wellllll but, you see, ive never been an A student (unlike my sisters-3 of them) or being labelled as The Smart One, so being able to do most of the papers was a feat!
my first taste of A levels was H1 Geog paper.
i actually cried after the paper.
I am sucha weeper, i swear.
I was so devastated i lost myself when i heard whatever i wrote for my Outsourcing question was wrong (not entirely BUT still wrong). i cried because i thought about the bad grade i might get and that would really threaten my position in Uni so sobx sobz sobs.
But i learnt alot from there, i learnt that i shouldnt cry over something that is done.
" dont cry over spilled milk"
yeah how apt right? not like youre gonna lick up those milk off the ground right? k nvmz.
but sigh, i decided to go all out for the rest of the papers and just forget about the mistakes.
and i did.
(: im prouuuuda myself.
Okay, got to go do some econs nowwwww!
Time Table for next week.
Tue- Chem Paper 2
Wed- Econs Paper 2
Fri- Econs paper 1
Next Mon- Chem Paper 1.
AND IM OVER WITH IT.
:D WHOOOOOOOOOOOOO
okay bye. hehehehehehe
OH YES MY FRIENDS SAID THIS INVIGILATOR LOOKS LIKE ME HAHAHAHAHHA
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
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